Monday, 23 January 2012

THE RAY OF HOPE



Positive thinking, a term that we all know, we have heard why it is important, know various stories regarding it. At some point of life, everyone gets this lecture on importance of positive thinking and nearly all of us honestly consider it crap. I was no different. Yes yes, I know what you are thinking, her goes another lecture, another blog on this standard BS but read on, may be it helps…

I was a very negative person, ask my friends; every good thing had negativity for me. I got so many lectures from my friends to stay positive but my ears were closed. When they were open, I heard from one ear and it went out through the other one. I had everything, intelligence, charm, friends and yet I used to curse myself on something or the other; even god sometimes for all kinds of stuff. I was always longing for what I didn’t have with me, for what others had with them. In short, I would just sulk.

Last week, as per my course of studies, I had to undergo a week’s training. It was supposed to be regarding grooming of an individual and on know how of professional environment. I knew it’d be boring but it was a compulsion to attend and so I went.

That is what changed me. Everyone came and said something or the other. Not so important to state here but what is wroth mentioning is what some of them said. What they told me about positivity, the basic meaning and the importance of it. Hell I had never thought anything could change my negativity but this mere one week, of which just 2-3 lectures were on positive thinking, changed me. Not completely, but enough to make me stay happy and keep away my all time favorite depressed and cranky mode. It was the little things they told me, the small stories, their words, that moved me from within and not just from outside. The reward is what god gave me; out of the blue the best students of class were disqualified the last day for a bunk which they didn’t even try of doing on the first 6 days. The last day they did it? I guess it was god working. To appreciate my positivity may be… I’m saying this cause on the last day, out of the blue, I got best students award.

The story that made me stop the all time sulk mode was of Arthur Ashe. Arthur Ashe, the legendary Wimbledon player was dying of Cancer. From world over, he received letters from his fans, one of which conveyed: “why does god have to select you for such a bad disease?”. To this Arthur Ashe replied: “ the world over- 5 crore children start playing tennis, 50 lakh learn to play tennis, 5 lakh learn professional tennis, 50,000 cone to circuit, 5000 reach the grand slams, 50 reach Wimbledon, 4 to semi final, 2 to the finals, when I was holding a cup, I never asked god “ why me?”.  And today I pain I should not be asking god “why me?”


I had everything yet cursed myself (sometimes even god too) for what I was. How dumb of me. Thank god!! I realized this before loosing everything or anything. Various other stories, various other examples, changed me. Not just for the sake of saying it, but really. Now I see a happy me. Hope I stay this way!!




Now if someone asks me to describe this glass, I’d say it’s full, half water and half air. Air is the god’s grace on us, which we ignore to see even when we know it is there. Lastly, I’d say, if you’re still reading, let everything be positive, happy, charming and glowing.

The ray of hope is finally visible to me now J



Some of my unfinished and initial tales..


These are the random thoughts put together. I know they are not great but it is a part of what I wrote and this blog is about what I write or feel so I am posting it.

        I.            I am an ordinary bird
From a flock of birds
I wanted to fly high
And be extraordinary
But I met too many Brute’s in my life
Who kept stabbing me,                
Hence draining my life.

You show you’re sweet
You show you’re neat
But I know you lie,
I know you cheat.

You are the Brute from Julius Caesar's tale
Your are the brute of my ordinary tale
I know you want to see me fail
You used me as bait
And played with my fate…

      II.            The days are dark
The nights are gloomy
My noon is lonely
And evening is _____

    III.            What is it with people falling in love
Why do they stop being rational?
How can’t they see?
That she is a bitch
Or even may be a witch.

    IV.            Feel like escaping this loud music
And these blasting, shown as joy
It’s suffocating now…
Depressing it is to only give
Joy in giving is true,
But up to what limit?

Thursday, 17 November 2011

I'm dying here..


I’m lying here, I’m dying here,
Come take me, just make me,
Turn me around and just wake me.
I want to live, I want to breathe,
But this world is choking me…

Do your magic, cast a spell,
Which releases me from this world or that helps me dwell,
The pain out of me that makes me repel,
Every kind of happiness that I want for me…
Please do something which makes me live,
Or something that helps me escape this hell…

Swing me around or twist my veins,
Say the glorious words or just end the pain.
I wish no more for I have no hope,
I just pray so that I can only cope,
With this time without you,
In the wait of the magic,
That fills me with life,
That fills me with you…

Saturday, 5 November 2011

My baby sister, a prince’s wife...


The girl with long hair,
The girl for whom I deeply care,
The girl whose smile is brighter than sunshine,

The one who talks nonstop even when not fine,
The girl who is the love of my life,
My baby sister, a prince’s wife...

She is the one I adore,
The one who deserves so much more,
I wish I can be with her,
Every moment, every time
But I’m afraid because of me,
She won’t be able to shine.
For I am not what I should be,
She would never consider me,
As the idol I want to be,
As the person I can’t be.

For I have made her cry,
So much that her eyes went dry.
I have been so bad to her,
We fought like we could rip each other.
 
But I don’t know how,
It all became wow.
I became her love, she my life,
Now we hug and we cry.
We jell so well,
And raise a living hell.
Cause she is the love of my life,
She is my darling,
My baby sister and a prince’s wife...

Monday, 17 October 2011

Tanha..


Aaj phir hai dil tanha
Beh rahe hai ashk phir aaj
Phir aa gaya hai wo khalipan
Jissey bhaag rahi thi har lamha
Dhund rahi hu iss bheed mein
Wo saath jissey keh saku apna
Wo haath jissey thaam k kar saku paar iss dard ko
Ek aisa saath jo thaam le inn aasuo ko..

Iss bhaag daud mein kho gayi hu main
Talash rahi hu apne hone ki wajah
Kyu aayi main, kyu laya gaya mujhe yaha
Jaha humesha mujhe rehna hota hai tanha..

Thi kabhi main kaabil, jeet rahi thi har baazi
Jenne ko tab thi main raazi
Par ab lagta hai jaise chod du inn sabko
Iss duniya ko, iss duniya k rishto ko,
Iss bhaag daud ko, jisne kar diya hai tanha mujhe..
Kya pa lungi main, iss duniya ki bhaag duad se
Jo hai sabse ahem, wo toh paa saki na main..

Kab tak yu likh kar baya karu apna haal
Kadr kisse hai meri ya meri iss likhawat ki
Hai bus kuch likha hua duniya k liye
Ehsaas kaha hai kissi ko inn panktiyo k dard ka, uski kahani ka
Hai bus kuch likha hua sabke liye
Jissey acha keh k badh chale aagey
Hai samay kiss k pass jo tham le mujhe,
Jo de sake mujhe koi aas
Jo rok le mujhe yu rone se
Jo rok le mujhe tanha hone se.. 

Saturday, 15 October 2011

25th wedding anniversary..



Na hote hum na hote tum,
Agar na hota wo din.
Na milte hum na milte tum,
Jo na aaya hota wo din.
Wo din hai khaas, 
Wo log hai khaas,
Jinhone milaya tha aapko
Na milaya hota toh na milte do dil, na ye lamha aata, na ye din..

Uss din k naam, hai ye paigam
Shukriya ki tum aaye.
Aaye aur dheir khushiya laye,
Naye rishte banaye, naye log milwaye,
Aur zindagi k kuch aise lamhe sajaye,
Jinhe aaj hum kar rahe hai yaad,
Kehte toh hai ki ye karte hai barbaad,
Par dekha hai maine, karte hai ye sirf aabaad
Pahcees(25) saale pehle beete aise hi ek lamhe ki hai ye saugaat,
Jisne milaya tha uhe jo hai sabse khaas..

Aaj bus kehna hai unse,
Mubarakho ye pachees(25) saal
Jo beete kayi mausum ki tarah
Jismein kabhi thi bahaar toh kabhi takraar
Par jis pal ki wajah se, jee rahe hai hum aaj..

Sukriya humari zindagi mein aane k liye,
Humein itna kuch banane k liye,
Aap dono hai bohot khaas
Hai humare dil k sabse pass
Antt mein bus kehna hai aapse,
Ki jee rahe hai sirf aapki wajah se.,
Aapke aashirwaad se, aapki saugaat se..