Saturday, 28 January 2012

I wished so..

Will you hold me tight,
if i told you so?
Will you strike a blow,
for i asked you so.
Will everything be bright,
if i just wished so??

Will you come and wipe my tears,
when they blur my vision?
Will you come and make me smile,
when there is not a single reason?
Will you just come and sit around,
throughout every season?

I was just hoping so,
I'm just begging you so,
to make a move,
so that i may know,
that yes, you are there,
to row my boat,
as i had wished so...

Monday, 23 January 2012

THE RAY OF HOPE



Positive thinking, a term that we all know, we have heard why it is important, know various stories regarding it. At some point of life, everyone gets this lecture on importance of positive thinking and nearly all of us honestly consider it crap. I was no different. Yes yes, I know what you are thinking, her goes another lecture, another blog on this standard BS but read on, may be it helps…

I was a very negative person, ask my friends; every good thing had negativity for me. I got so many lectures from my friends to stay positive but my ears were closed. When they were open, I heard from one ear and it went out through the other one. I had everything, intelligence, charm, friends and yet I used to curse myself on something or the other; even god sometimes for all kinds of stuff. I was always longing for what I didn’t have with me, for what others had with them. In short, I would just sulk.

Last week, as per my course of studies, I had to undergo a week’s training. It was supposed to be regarding grooming of an individual and on know how of professional environment. I knew it’d be boring but it was a compulsion to attend and so I went.

That is what changed me. Everyone came and said something or the other. Not so important to state here but what is wroth mentioning is what some of them said. What they told me about positivity, the basic meaning and the importance of it. Hell I had never thought anything could change my negativity but this mere one week, of which just 2-3 lectures were on positive thinking, changed me. Not completely, but enough to make me stay happy and keep away my all time favorite depressed and cranky mode. It was the little things they told me, the small stories, their words, that moved me from within and not just from outside. The reward is what god gave me; out of the blue the best students of class were disqualified the last day for a bunk which they didn’t even try of doing on the first 6 days. The last day they did it? I guess it was god working. To appreciate my positivity may be… I’m saying this cause on the last day, out of the blue, I got best students award.

The story that made me stop the all time sulk mode was of Arthur Ashe. Arthur Ashe, the legendary Wimbledon player was dying of Cancer. From world over, he received letters from his fans, one of which conveyed: “why does god have to select you for such a bad disease?”. To this Arthur Ashe replied: “ the world over- 5 crore children start playing tennis, 50 lakh learn to play tennis, 5 lakh learn professional tennis, 50,000 cone to circuit, 5000 reach the grand slams, 50 reach Wimbledon, 4 to semi final, 2 to the finals, when I was holding a cup, I never asked god “ why me?”.  And today I pain I should not be asking god “why me?”


I had everything yet cursed myself (sometimes even god too) for what I was. How dumb of me. Thank god!! I realized this before loosing everything or anything. Various other stories, various other examples, changed me. Not just for the sake of saying it, but really. Now I see a happy me. Hope I stay this way!!




Now if someone asks me to describe this glass, I’d say it’s full, half water and half air. Air is the god’s grace on us, which we ignore to see even when we know it is there. Lastly, I’d say, if you’re still reading, let everything be positive, happy, charming and glowing.

The ray of hope is finally visible to me now J



Some of my unfinished and initial tales..


These are the random thoughts put together. I know they are not great but it is a part of what I wrote and this blog is about what I write or feel so I am posting it.

        I.            I am an ordinary bird
From a flock of birds
I wanted to fly high
And be extraordinary
But I met too many Brute’s in my life
Who kept stabbing me,                
Hence draining my life.

You show you’re sweet
You show you’re neat
But I know you lie,
I know you cheat.

You are the Brute from Julius Caesar's tale
Your are the brute of my ordinary tale
I know you want to see me fail
You used me as bait
And played with my fate…

      II.            The days are dark
The nights are gloomy
My noon is lonely
And evening is _____

    III.            What is it with people falling in love
Why do they stop being rational?
How can’t they see?
That she is a bitch
Or even may be a witch.

    IV.            Feel like escaping this loud music
And these blasting, shown as joy
It’s suffocating now…
Depressing it is to only give
Joy in giving is true,
But up to what limit?