Last night, it happened again,
I cried myself to sleep in vain.
Thinking about stuff I shouldn't be,
Getting stuck at a place that's not meant for me.
Yet I keep going back there again,
And again And again And yet again.
Its like a game I'm playing,
One step forward and three steps back.
I lift my spirits and try to shine brightly,
But I'm smacked right back, into this reality.
I'm panting, gasping for air,
Its like being choked all over again.
Its burning again even though I'm drowning,
The light is leaving but I still can't feel the calm.
This isn't how it was described to me,
Its chilling, its burning, its not that soothing warm.
Alas! It happened today one more time,
I woke up with a rock on my head and sore eyes.
Have you ever felt the need to fill the void that keeps on growing;
Inside of you, killing you, making you weak, cruelly agonizing..
When you're crying inside but the tears dry up,
When you feel like having someone with you, but when you look around you find none.
Going around and enjoying the bonds are others,
While you're all alone, not even a friend there;
Enjoying with you or sitting near,
waiting for you or just being with you.
You stand alone, see what went wrong;
was it some stuff or you the one wrong.
One mind says you're missing love,
And the other one longing for just friends;
And the heart just wants someone near,
To make you feel that you exist,
To make you realize something is still there, inside you that's not yet gone.
But alas! No ones there, neither was nor seem will be there.
So you do the only thing you do,
You pick a pen and write it all.
To bring out the tear that's gone dry,
To feel something, to try and be alive...
